Pivotal Mental States… why didn't I make this connection.
Autistic people are more often exposed to pivotal mental states. That causes a period of hyperplasticity. Meltdowns are probably related to this… They can go very wrong too.
High stress makes you reach a breaking point – at that point your brain enters a hyperplastic state – if it’s in a supportive environment it can override negative beliefs about yourself, but in a negative one it wires in really bad ones.
Deep learning is stuff that happens in the subconscious. The messages we internalise in this hyperplastic state can dictate a lot of our behaviour. I think 'Masking' can be directly related to us hitting these all the time.
We not only change fundamental things about who we are in this hyperplastic state, but we encourage our brain to help us reduce the connection to memories that are incongruent.
If you are in a fear state during hyperplasiticity you can wire in so many awful things about yourself, your brain uses these patterns to help inform new behaviour to protect yourself, but it's actually erasing who you are.
‘Suggestibility’ in hyperfocus hangover might be explained by this too.
This is what happens to me, my brain is basically burnt out and people can talk to me and my subconscious brain is just taking direction without me even realising. My wife gives me instructions and I act on them without even thinking. There's no cognition on my part.
When I was on Venlafaxine I was in a permanent hyperplastic state I had no control over and I was just overwhelmed merely moving due to the effects of brain zaps and brain fog. I couldn't meltdown because I was numb. This is what happened… ugh.
This medication actually messed me up really badly. I internalised so many awful messages about myself for the two months I was on it.
It was overloading my norepinephrine and serotonin receptors constantly. I think I metabolise fast and was rebounding constantly.
Oh right… I always metabolise fast… I always have.
I have extremely high drug tolerance too, and this destroyed me on the lowest dose.
The main thing SSRIs did for me was slow my metabolism… I need to look into this effect now. A lightbulb just went on.
This isn’t to be fatphobic how I look here is fine also but I want to talk about this. I was 115kg on high dose SSRIs (sertraline). When I went off SSRIs I dropped down to 75kg and I maintain with no problems. I had an excess of serotonin always.
95% of serotonin is stored in the gut. It must have a role in metabolism.
Because I had so much I had to eat so much… I was always hungry. I think my brain thought I didn’t have enough food. I have Crohn’s disease.
When I brought my dopamine and serotonin levels back in line in the gut and ALSO eliminated sound stress (sound has a link to serotonin production). I am in remission… 🤯
Can’t really explain how much this one thing messed up the last ten years of my life.