Really, really want to figure out if there is anything on 'passive learning'. I feed my brain information, it may not understand it at the time, then a week later or so without having thought about it much I understand it in depth. As though my brain has been networking nodes.
Disconnected information is the hardest to integrate for me. I spent forever not understanding pointers in programming, and then my brain linked it to the postal system as an analogy. I instantly understood it. Raw technical terms need translation links.
This was inspired by another client who said the same thing. We have weird brains, we have an incredible 'unconscious' mind for complexity that helps us solve simplicity. This is why also I think we need to know everything rather than just tiny parts, because we need a network.
The problem is that we are often it was too hard for people to understand I wasn't trying to be obtuse when I asked seemingly 'stupid questions' I was trying to link that information together to other stuff I knew so that I could translate it into my Autistic understanding.
For understanding a lot of quantum physics I just had to read everything (I still can't do a lot of the math) but I joined all that information together once I knew a ton. Then I felt more comfortable with it.
Being taught in a linear fashion is the opposite of how my brain works and explains why I found school so impossible. I need the full picture to understand the fine details. It's a full picture detailed understanding, that also just takes time, and verbal processing speeds it up.
The more I can communicate it to someone else (either through text or through speaking) the better I understand that information, given how many parts of our brain are involved it makes sense that potential plasticity helps this work.
Also when I think about how all my neurons want to infodump on each other all the time:
eg. Rocks are minerals, mineral shampoo is not always natural, a concept of a synthetic material made out of natural components is weird, computers have components, I do a lot of processing.
The more I tried, the harder it was to actually encode information – the less effort involved or more enjoyable it is, the easier I can access that information and process it. Competition conditions or extreme timelines for content I didn't understand made it worse.
This was also why I knew someone didn't know a topic well, because if they couldn't explain it in it's simplest form and then build on it, they didn't really know that information except from a rote perspective, not an in depth one.
Regurgitating information and teaching are two different things. Anyone can do one of these, it takes a good teacher to do the other.
Most of the times I was called stupid now I am realising it's probably that they didn't know beyond what they had been taught and encoded from an imitation perspective I am now realising. Bad epistemic justification on their part.
Oh right, this is where ad hominem or appeal to authority was always used on me – "You think you are so smart", "I don't see your <subject> degree", "I don't have time to explain to an idiot".
I used to get so frustrated with people repeating the exact same thing but slower and thinking that helped. It wasn't that I didn't hear you, it's that you could not explain it to me in a simple form. Anyone can repeat jargon – listen to a lot of political theorists.
Just so sad when I know this stuff about my brain now. All this time spent thinking I was bad, when it was the delivery method that was bad, and the fact everything is a competition with knowledge. Why?